The Road to the Oscars is Long and Winding, and You Might Die Along the Way

I hate rejection, but I love acting. Sadly, the two often go hand in hand. Even if you are the most talented actor out there, like a Natalie Portman or a Brando, you will face rejection in your career. Rumor has it that Danny DeVito was rejected hundreds of times before he got a break, and I'm way hotter than him. Just saying.
Often it's not even your talent you are being judged on but a specific look the director has in mind, or even being connected to a certain person. Let's face it, there are many actors out there making a living who have the acting skills of one of my pubic hairs. I won't mention names, but their initials are... Just kidding! I don't want any lawsuits. There are so many factors that go into casting that the average film goer doesn't even begin to think about.
Even though at times, this has knocked me down and made me want to quit, I still keep trying because acting is what I was born to do. I have worked really hard, and I am always learning and growing, trying to perfect my craft. I watch movies and study actors I admire. Often times I am frustrated at how far people can get with so little skill based on how they look, but I understand. The general public likes to look at pretty people. There are the rare breed who possess both beauty and talent, and those are the ones I fear the most.
I will admit that there are roles I have cried over when I wasn't cast. Especially if I was led to believe I was a sure thing, but this business is like my ex boyfriend, scary and unpredictable. If you don't have balls of steel you will not make it, or you will become Charlie Sheen. I am a badass, and often this industry knocks me to the ground.
Too many people want their fifteen minutes. Lord knows some of their fifteen minutes should have been over years ago. They want the money, the magazine covers, the fame, but the true actor wants to create beautiful work and leave a legacy behind. I would consider myself in the latter category. I am not going to turn down money, but I have turned down numerous projects that were what I consider "camera phone toilet films" even though those projects won distribution and a small amount of fame for those involved. I would rather do two films that are works of art that I can show people than 500 blockbusters. Heath Ledger had a similar philosophy, and though his career was cut short, his legacy will live on with "The Dark Knight" and "Brokeback Mountain."
So you can have your Lindsay Lohans, Paris Hiltons, and all the other bimbos and skankettes out there. They may have more money than me, but they are also paying it out in legal fees, and Lohan looks older than me, and I've got a good ten years on her. So enjoy your fifteen minutes in the tabloids. I'll be crying all the way to the Oscars or even better the Independent Spirit Awards.